I had been very busy since the trip to Manila last weekend. To cut the long story short, overall the trip was good especially with the warm hospitality from the Tiu Lim's family.
Sometimes I just cannot stand my mum on the way she treated my brother who is already 31 years old this year! I think she still thinks that he is a college going teenager, or even a small boy. I mean I do understand that our parents always treat us as their babies even when we are all grown up. But I think she is doing it too much to the extent that it is no longer called pampering, more like babysitting (and intolerable)! Perhaps, I am badly influence by my lou kung on how I looked at them. But these are all true... the way she is acting towards him, thus making him not ever growing up, older and wiser. It is all her fault, yet she sometimes blame it on God knows what??!! I know, I am getting very frustrated. It is not jealous nor any siblings rivalry here, but I think she is over protecting him till he is always acting so childish, and immature.
Why? I wish God will help her change. She is going to be a true Christian this Sunday, and I hope she will change, and accept the fact that certain characteristic of her that is in dire need of change. Otherwise, I think she is only jeopardizing his life. But then again, he is also one hell of a person... but somehow I still think he can be a much better person, if not for the protection, pampering, sheltering etc. that he is getting from her.
I know no matter what, she is still my mum; and off course I love her and care for her very much. I felt so hurt whenever my lou kung says hurtful things about her. Both are persons closest to me, so naturally when either party says hurtful things about one another; I am the one who is feeling the saddest. I wonder whether will they ever realize this fact. Lou kung... I think you have said the word "your mum is a very 'lan kau' person" for more than 10 times in these few days. I wonder whether you knew how sad, and angry I am when hearing this sentence coming out from your mouth each time!
Mum... I know you care and love us dearly, but not all the times, your approach is correct, and acceptable. We are human, and we do make mistakes; I know I am very stubborn at times, but if we realize and change, I think we can all live happier and healthier.
Hui... I think you need a serious booster to show off all that is inside you all these years. Be yourself, do not live behind the shadow of anyone; be brave to face the outside world, no one will laugh at you, we are people who will only help and guide you through thick and thin. Tell mum that you no longer need her to cover, and umbrella you; you can do it, and just do it!
Lou kung... Whilst I know a lot of times you do mean good in most of the things you do and say, however I regret to say that the way you present your thoughts is always not so polite, and decent. I just hope that you can learn to say things in a better manner.
And over to myself... I just pray, and hope for the BEST.
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